Perspective Change

Would you believe I have spent three days writing this blog post because I was not sure what God wanted me to say on this topic? It is something that has happened to me YET I could not find the words to word it. Crazy right? 

ANYWAYS

Coming onto my new squad I was terrified, I was nervous, and I felt all of the emotions that I think any person could have felt (literally.) I remember telling one of the girls on my former squad that I don’t think I would be able to handle switching to another squad because I did not instantly feel welcomed by them. A week ago yesterday we all started talking on the GroupMe, Last Sunday night we all did a zoom call, and by Monday I really felt I found community within my squad and that is something that was a BIG DEAL to me. If you didn’t know already I am the type of person that loves connection and I want to connect on some level with every single person that I come into contact with and if I don’t connect with them then I feel like I have failed them. Probably also a little (maybe a lot) of people pleasing within that, but that’s another post for another day. That is one thing I am getting at is that the World Race is ALLL about community and we need community and that is something that my church stands by because we cannot do life alone and I for sure don’t think I can do life alone for three months on the mission field because I think that is literally impossible. I am learning to embrace community and I am learning to be vulnerable with my squad and that is something that has become easier as the time has went along the past week. 

COMMUNITY IS GOOD. But God also gave me a perspective change this week. He told me “Ash you want to connect with everyone, but instead of worrying about if you are accepted, if everyone likes you why don’t you worry about making sure every new person that joins this squad feels encouraged and welcomed” and with that I have taken the initiative to reach out to every new person that comes in and make sure they feel welcomed, and make sure I have connected with them and bring them into our squad by showing love to them. And honestly that is something that I really am loving and SO glad that God is giving me this right now. 

This season of transition into another squad really has been hard, but I love the people so much that I am surrounded with and I cannot wait to spend three months out on the mission field with them. Each and every one of them has a strong calling on their life, they are so passionate, and they are the most loving group of people out there. 

Pray for my squad as we get ready for this trip, as we continue to pray that this coronavirus will go away so we can launch the beginning of September, and for any fear or doubts that we may have right now to disappear in the name of Jesus, and pray for unity between us that we can be open and real with each other whether that be on our group Snapchat, or while we are on Zoom/FaceTime. 

These people are going to change the world. And I really cannot wait for this sweet time we are going to have out on the mission field together in just a couple of months! 

LETS CHOOSE IN TOGETHER.