It has been a little bit since I made a blog post, but I figured I would start getting back on top of the blogging with a story that actually happened to me last night that had God just all over it.
Sunday night I started feeling the devil creep in with the lies of “you are too much for your squad” and that is what constantly filled my head the past couple of days now. I was actually starting to believe those lies to an extent. I talked to a former racer (s/o Bella you’re the best) she encouraged me to take a step in boldness and be vulnerable and be myself with them and so last night I did just that. I told them all of the things about me feeling like I am “too much” for them. I told them about something heavy on my heart that I went through growing up. And while I was terrified to tell them because it takes a lot for me to just open up like that I went for it. I took that step out in boldness. And here is what happened:
They loved me through it. They encouraged me through it. They shut the devil up real quick. They took the brokenness, the lies I was dealing with, and the mess of my past and loved me through it. My squad is as one of my teammates Sage said it perfectly is, “ we are growing into an army against lies” and man that was powerful. Every single thing I thought they replaced that thought with truth. When I said I didn’t feel like I belonged they reminded me of how loved I am, the impact I have made on the squad, and that it wouldn’t be the same without me. These people will fight for me and fight against the enemy in my name.
These are my people. They are the ones I am going to be spending 11 months of this insane journey we are all about to embark on. What we have is special and something that I’ve never experienced in my life. We are truly a family. And we truly are turning into an army against lies. That describes us perfectly.
To my FAMILY: I love each of you more than you know. You are the people that will go to war and fight for me and for who I am in God. I can’t wait for training camp on July 17th to see your faces in person. I can’t wait for worship nights, ministry days, travel days, and getting to be with you all. THANK YOU ALL FOR WHO YOU ARE.
an army against lies. I can’t get enough of that. Thanks God for these people. You’re the best.
Much love,
ANW
